part of something beautiful

may the grace of god be with you always, in your heart,

may you know the truth inside you from the start,

may you find the strength to know that you are

a part of something beautiful...

-alexi murdoch, "something beautiful"

good days

good weekend with a dear friend.

she just left, and i realize now just how comforting and uplifting it was to have her here. there is something powerful about those relationships that run years and years back...ever since i can remember. and, well, when you move to a place where you know almost no one, there's something powerful in simply having someone here who knows you. so you can come back now, ok, maggie?

these october days my mind has returned many times to october of 2010, and where my mom and i were standing exactly one year ago at this time...mm, yes. those were good days.

the hard part

this is the hard part.

i know what i'm going back to. i know that there are many unhappy moments.



but still, i'll go. i'll go. and most likely, i'll survive.

for now

WARNING: this may be a bit melodramatic, but i've just got to say it...


i feel so strange right now.

sometimes the strangeness lifts and i can take a few deep breaths. other times i forget where i am for a moment or two. but i soon remember again.

all a part of the process.

all a part of the process.

"We, little sisters- like everyone else- have had to carve our path in the world."
-Little Sisters: The Last But Not the Least, Carolyn Lieberg

i'm working on it. these things take time.

sweet, sweet boy

this sweet, sweet boy- on my mind so much lately.

here is a wise old soul if i ever saw one.

sending him love, love and more love.

mezcla

all i have to say is phew. it has been extremely annoying to me these past few weeks that my picture header was always on the left side, and not centered. well, after some searching last night, i discovered how to center it! no, i have not yet figured out how to make it stretch the whole width of my blog, but maybe it's just not possible?

the banner above is one i created myself....and all of the pictures are actually mine (i took all except the ones of myself...obviously). however, i'm just not sure i like this look as much as one larger picture. i really wanted to use my own pictures though, and i wanted to use a mix of them. mezcla. that's "mix" or "blend" in spanish...i like that word.

anyway, i suppose this shouldn't be my priority on one of my precious last few days in madison before i move to iowa city, but what can you do? when motivation calls....

part of the problem is i don't even know what to do. this is when i need leah to tell me exactly what step to take next, or molly- she's also good at that. i may just have to recruit my mom for that position, seeing as she's the one close at hand...

wish me luck packing, or organizing or planning or whatever it is i'll be doing...

"broken songs"

new favorite song.
i could listen to it over and over...it is soothing, and sad, and true.
it never lasts long enough.

click below, and have a listen.

"broken songs" by jim ward, featuring tegan quin.